This week has been full of ups and downs. Sometimes I feel like I’m on an emotional roller coaster; but as things come to a close here at the MTC, I have been thinking a lot about just how much I have learned. I didn’t expect to change this much in such a short amount of time. I don’t feel like the person I was almost 6 weeks ago. The difference is that I have come to deeply understand the correlation between obedience and spiritual growth.
When we are obedient, we exercise faith and that is when we start to feel it [the Holy Ghost] testify to us the truth of what we are doing. I still have a lot of growth to do, but I feel as though I am ready to preach the gospel to people. Maybe not so much in Portuguese; but that is another thing. No offence to my wonderful French teacher. I could never have learned as much french in this amount of time as I have Portuguese. The reason is that I am not learning Portuguese so that I can know Portuguese. I am learning Portuguese so that the people of Portugal can know the Gospel. When we are on the Lord’s errand he blesses us in innumerable ways.
I have grown a deep appreciation for all the wonderful gospel truths that have blessed my life. I just got back from the temple. That was the last time I will have been to the temple in a year and a half. I was thinking of how blessed I feel to know that families can be together forever and that we can return to live with our heavenly father again. I know that this is the true gospel, and the only way to be truly happy in this life is to come to know our savior Jesus Christ. Because without his atoning sacrifice there would be no such thing as happiness. I love you all so much and I pray that all will be well with you.
Love, Sister Runyan